You didn't know the depth of my love and that's okay. You don't want me anymore and that's okay. I might always love you and that is also okay.
I hope for the best for both of us.
You got really really drunk and told me you're going to marry me.
After college, of course, you clarified, a few moments before you puked.
And you know what? I love you so much that, yeah, I'll marry you. After college, of course.
It's amazing how a person can just make you lose your common sense by just their presence
Call me crazy but I think the universe keeps coming up with more and more ways to bring us closer together. And we keep pulling apart.
Her smile was so bright and her eyes were sparkling, she asked everyone how they were and how they were doing. But no one even asked her the same, until one person came along. He looked her dead in the eyes and asked "What's wrong?" And I saw her break before my eyes, tears started streaming down her face. To this day, I'm amazed at how much people can hide with just a smile.
You ever look at your crush and they are so passionate about what they love!
Like they move their hands and you see that bright smile and see that glint in their eyes.
And the cuteness is too much and you just wanna squeeze them and bear hug them and destroy them with kisses.
Yeah.... I feel that way every time I look at her while she talks about her passions 😭
I come here to see people bare their souls. Love makes people vulnerable. It shows who people are when they are stripped away of all of the extras. They are without filters. It's as real as it gets and I need to witness something real, even if I'm not the one experiencing it. I love these letters.
Yesterday while sitting at a red light, I started frantically combing my hair with my fingers so I wouldn't look like a hot mess when I got to my destination. As I turned my head to the side to get the back of my hair, I glanced up and saw a cute guy in a pickup truck staring at me like he was mesmerized. We made eye contact and both smiled. It is the epitome of cliche but God I needed that. Something so little can make me feel so good. I have been feeling invisible. I don't thrive on attention, in fact, I usually don't like it. But due to some personal things going on in my life, my self esteem has taken a hit and I just don't feel like myself. I'm criticizing my skin, hair, weight, all of it. I feel like I've been forgotten and I guess the natural reaction is to reflect and find things wrong with me to explain this void. So to capture someone's attention for even a moment and make them smile made me feel like I was on cloud nine.
Everyone needs attention. You can love yourself but still feel that deep rooted pain associated with loneliness. People will tell you to love yourself, don't worry about other people and they will try to make you feel bad about wanting that very basic need of human connection. Screw them. There is nothing wrong with me and there is nothing wrong with you. We deserve to be noticed. We deserve to be desired. An attention whore is someone who goes out of their way to get attention and it's never enough. Do not confuse that with the craving for attention and connections when you're practically starved of it. You aren't an attention whore. You're human, just like everyone else.
I need to get over him. I need to get over his beautiful laugh and his bubbly personality, and just how genuine he is around everyone makes my heart hurt. He's so passionate about great films and old music and his voice is as wonderful as his laughter and I wish so bad that he would actually like me back.
He's the one I've been waiting for, I'm sure of it but he'll never fall for me, the fool who stumbles over her words and lets the silence hang in the air between us. I'm the ugly, quiet girl who writes her stupid feelings out on ltc just to get things off her chest.
He's something else entirely and I know he's fallen for another girl. Someone who is more than I could ever be and I'm so happy for her because she deserves a guy like him. They have conversations about their favourite movies and cute arguments over trivial things. I wish that could've been us.