We're having prom at the art museum this year and maybe she'll be one extra masterpiece that night.
She has this laugh where she just smiles and shakes uncontrollably and sometimes tears slide down her face and I think if I can just witness that for the rest of my life I'll be good
Guys, please don't "ghost" girls (or guys), i.e. never contact them ever again, and stop talking to them for good after you show some sort of romantic interest.
It hurts. It really fucking hurts.
I've been ghosted more times than I'd like to admit by guys that seemed to be genuinely interested in me, and the first and only guy I ever dated in my life even ghosted me.
It's been over a year, and I'm still haunted over this. I still find myself wondering what is wrong with me to make this sort of thing happen, and what makes people think it's okay to hurt people like this.
So please, give them a reason.
Anything. Just give them closure. Something that will make them stop asking why they weren't good enough or what they did wrong.
After days of agonizing over whether or not I should text him... he did.
HE TEXTED ME FIRST.
what a special day.
we were never meant to be.
we were never supposed to grow old with each other. we were never supposed to live together in a cute little apartment. we were never going to get a dog together. you were never going to bring me lunch at work. i was never going to talk to you on the phone until we fell asleep.
we were never going to fall in love.
but goddamn it felt like it.
He looked me in the eyes tonight and told me he was in love with me.
I stared into his eyes and told him he would meet the right girl someday.
You know how when you're falling in love with someone and everything is bright and full of hope and everything is just so beautiful -- the stars in the sky, the cold nose of your dog, the way your socks slide on the floor, the teenage girl who held the door open for you in Target, the way rain splashes on the surface of a pond -- everything is lovely and fresh and just tickles your soul?
I have that feeling.
I remember the very first time I met you. It's hard to forget the way the world halted as you looked into my eyes. You've always had that effect on me; even from day one.
I like that when you laugh, you instinctively put your hand over your nose and mouth; almost like a kitten.
And when you really laugh, your cheeks turn pink and your eyes become a dazzling emerald.
And I think about the time when I was followed to my car by some hollering boys after work, then told you about it the next day. You never let me walk to my car alone again.
Then when we went out for our friend's 23rd birthday party, and I had to be the designated driver because I was only 20. You stayed sober with me, just to make sure that I wasn't sitting alone all night.
And then when my 21st birthday came up, you took me downtown with my three best friends and, again, stayed sober the whole night through. You even carried me back to my car when I drunkenly sat down on the sidewalk because those stupid heels I had on were killing my feet.
Then the night when our whole friend group met up at your apartment for the first time, and you bit your lip nervously as I looked around the place. You didn't think I noticed...but I did.
Or when my ex-boyfriend and I split up, and he bullied me into letting him keep my prized possessions (just because I was exhausted, and it wasn't worth the fight), you took it upon yourself to show up on his doorstep demanding it back. Even though I was a little bit mad the next day because I had told you not to.
I like that when we're in a group of friends, you try so hard to make them laugh but can never seem to get the punch line quite right. I'm always going to laugh with you; if only because I live for that appreciative smile you give me every time.
Because five years later, I still get butterflies every time your name pops into my notifications. I still have to excitedly scream into my pillow every time you message me. I still make a point to wear my hair naturally wavy with my bangs pulled back; because you once said it looked nice that way.
Because five years later, I finally realize that you are more than a boy, and this is more than a crush.
I'm head over heels; and I've never been more terrified.
In the best way possible.